There are days when it feels like I’m swimming upstream, Or treading water just to keep afloat. Hit by waves of guilt For having to split myself in two. And I feel like I’m sinking under the weight of all there is to do. The hard days, the long days, the days when I’m fuelled […]
parenthood
Turning one
It has been almost two months since I wrote anything here and as time has cantered by, you have waddled out of your first year and into toddler-hood. You have been walking since the end of September but only last week decided it was time to let go of our fingers and the couch, and […]
Change is in the air
You are 11 months old today. It seems unreal to me, as if the days have suddenly been picked up and carried away on the wind. It’s that time of year when change is hanging in the air; when 5.45am feels so much earlier than it did a few months ago, when the temperature drops, […]
Light and laughter
You are 8 months old today. You are very much a little boy now; you wave at people, you squeal with laughter when we tickle you, you wear tartan flannel pyjamas to bed, you hand things to me and then beam happily when I say ‘ta’. You bob up and down when you hear music […]
Past, present and future
You are of the I-generation. You have arrived into a world of I-pads and I-phones. Our phones are not just phones – they are cameras, navigation devices, calendars, calculators and video cameras, with the internet there at our fingertips. We have tablets, and laptops that turn into tablets. We store files in a Cloud. We […]
The Firsts
These early months have been flooded with Firsts – the first time you giggled, held your head up when lying on your tummy, went in the door bouncer, slept through the night… There are so many, happening in quick succession as your world stretches that bit further every day and you lean away from babyhood […]
Pieces of us
‘He takes after his father’. I realised recently that I often utter these words about you. Usually to do with the fact that I think you’re going to be tall like James (who, if you ask, will always say he is 6 foot 3 and a half). I also say it when you beam at the women […]